Now

Family

I’m learning how to be a better father. I hope I never stop learning. But I want to be the father my daughter needs and I know I have opportunities to improve.

Career

Limits have been reached, with respect to my currrent skill set and abilities. I would like to advance and I need to see opportunity and choose a direction.

This means I need to understand myelf better and I feel overwhelmed. I feel dumb that I haven’t been a better captain of my own ship.

Health

I am still coming to terms with my diabetes diagnosis. I’m struggling with making the dietary changes I need to make. I’m moving more in general but not enough to compenstate for poor choices. I need to choose to eat more fiber and to eat many fewer carbs. I’m having difficulty and I’m not proud of myself, today.

By comparison, avoiding wheat because of being Celiac seems easy.

Personal

I’m revisiting my ADHD diagnosis. Because I’m the Inattentive type of ADHD, I wasn’t diagnosed initially until I was 27. I thought I knew a lot about what that diagnosis means, but the science keeps evolving

My daughter was diagnosed in some ways similar to me, which I expected, but in additional ways which I did not expect. This does not occur in a vaccuum. I have been doing a lot of thinking about my experiences in the world and I realize that while I found a comfortable place to cope, but I haven’t learned anything new for a very long time. Neurodivergent TikTok has blown this open for me. I’m really grateful for those who are vulnerable and share their stories. I have come to realize I deserve more, and the world deserves more from me.

Hobby

In those moments when I’m not obsessively flipping through my RSS feeds, I’m moving my office upstairs to the first floor from the basement of my house. Part of that involves decisions about which media collections live where in my house. I will not be able to keep everything in one room. The old office featured my CD collection. I’m thinking the new office will feature books. And Lego? I have converted my digital media to be hosted on servers, but I also need to re-visit the analog collection to fill in gaps. Things I love but have forgotten about because the LPs and cassettes aren’t in nfront of me.

My daughter loves everything to do with Minecraft, so several hours on the weekend involve cooperative play in a few different Minecraft worlds. I have learned a little about villages and villagers, and I really enjoy world-building.