“Silent H” was a category on Jeopardy, today. I feel seen.

Had lunch with an old friend today. He is shipping overseas soon and for a long while. I was not prepared for how much it would hurt, for how sad I would feel. Making plans to celebrate his return.

I found a book with witches and vampires and alchemy, set in Oxford. So, naturally, I’m up too late

I moved out of my house for a several months in a span from November to May. Here’s why: Conway Whole House Remodel. Apparently we’re weird. We remodeled our house for us, not for some unknown next owner.

Currently reading: The Two Towers: Being the Second Part of The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien 📚

I had forgotten how much I loved the elves, and missed Gandalf.

I never don’t love a favorite song, but my relationship to it changes.

Sometimes a song lights fireworks. Sometimes I remember the fireworks the song lit, fondly.

It’s an interesting thing, going through my CDs, disc by disc. Encountering the infatuations I have had, both in terms of artists and genres.

What I listened to, at what point in my life, is linked deeply to memory.

More and more I am deeply impressed with the iPad and its effectiveness even as a primary work device. However, some seemingly “normal” activities like printing .eml attachments from the Outlook app throws a wrench into the machinery. Two apps needed.

I was very happy with the way that Numbers handled the playlist export from Music. It inferred a delimited file and presented the contents formatted in a very easily understood fashion. It was super easy to copy the two columns I wanted to share, and Nova helped me make markdown fast.

1. Eternal Lover — Moonwater
2. Karmic Light — Tetsu Inoue
3. They Come in Peace — Tranquility Bass
4. Plateau — Orb
5. A Study of Six Guitars — Amorphous Androgynous
6. Session 3: Wien in E — Tosca
7. Anthropomorphic — Qubism
8. No One in the World [Edit] — W.F.O.
9. Fat Chair — Terra Thaemlitz
10. edit:one — DJ Iri
11. Creatures Made Of Light Glide Softly Across The Slowly Ever-rotating Homeworld In Gentle Undulations Of Warm Dub Through The Encircling Golden Ether Common To System 35 — Mysteries of Science
12. #19 — Aphex Twin
13. Tranquility Base — Omicron
14. A Stream With Bright Fish — Brian Eno & Harold Budd
15. Expanding — Young American Primitive

A mix CD gift from Caleb, circa 2019.

1. Premonition — YukaKita Mura
2. Phoenix — WolfMother
3. Space Cruise — Ben Prunty
4. Abyss Watchers — Yuka Kitamura
5. Vignette: Panacea — Disasterpeace
6. Vordt of the Boreal Valley — Motoi Sakuraba
7. Mind’s Eye — WolfMother
8. Excerpt from The Tribulation — Michael Salvatori, C. Paul Johnson, Martin O’Donnell, Paul McCartney
9. End of the Line — Michael Salvatori, C. Paul Johnson, Martin O’Donnell, Paul McCartney
10. Odyssey — Home
11. Far Away — WolfMother
12. Siege Dancers — Michael Salvatori, C. Paul Johnson, Martin O’Donnell, Paul McCartney
13. Excerpt from The Union — Michael Salvatori, C. Paul Johnson, Martin O’Donnell, Paul McCartney
14. God? — Alec Holowka
15. Aldritch, Devourer of Gods — Motoi Sakuraba
16. Guardians Lost — Michael Salvatori, C. Paul Johnson, Martin O’Donnell, Paul McCartney
17. Where Eagles Have Been — WolfMother
18. The Alien — Ben Salisbury, Geoff Barrow
19. Soul of Cinder — Yuka Kitamura
20. Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) — Eurythmics

From a Maxell XLII 90 cassette given to me by my friend Chuck. Side A dated 6/20/94, Missing songs: Marion Diez, Half the Time. Side B dated 6/21/94

1. Get Enough — Ivy
2. You Bite My Tongue — Unwound
3. Our Caballero — Don Caballero
4. Blade of Grass — Versus
5. A Mouthful Of Exhaust — Man Or Astro-Man?
6. Sweet Pea — Seam
7. All Set to Go — Hard-Ons
8. Suki — Unrest
9. Rebound — Sebadoh
10. Alison — Slowdive
11. Bronx Cheer — Mercury Rev
12. Bricks — Crain
13. Solitary Set — Polvo

A mix tape reconstruction: Selections by Chuck Horne. He didn’t make it for me, but it’s beautiful. What a gift!

1. Main Sequence Diffusion / Photon / Lajolla — Füxa
2. A Stream With Bright Fish — Brian Eno & Harold Budd
3. Untitled — Jason Falkner
4. (untitled)4 — Bundy K. Brown, Doug Scharin, and James Warden
5. Cry, Cry — Mazzy Star
6. Untitled — Brian Eno
7. Bible Silver Corner — Rodan
8. Jacking the Ball — The Sea and Cake
9. Gymnopedie No.1 — Pascal Rogé
10. On Fire — Sebadoh
11. Cello — Slowdive
12. Untitled (Check and Double Check) — Stereolab
13. Barely Real — Codeine
14. I Love You — John Coltrane
15. Survival — Yes
16. Come Home — Placebo
17. Song In 3 — Galaxie 500
18. Crystal Shade — Flying Saucer Attack
19. Delta Rain Dream — Jon Hassel and Brian Eno
20. You’re Beautiful — Mojave 3
21. No Name #3 — Elliott Smith
22. Tin Cans & Twine — Tortoise
23. Rhine & Courtesan — Rachel’s
24. Touched — My Bloody Valentine

I missed the record store. I made a mix for my friends but mostly to show I was still edgy and cool. I never sent it. This track list was made for a 100-minute cassette tape. Label On Side A said “Disclaimer: Not for Customers”. Label on Side B said “Hello from Minnesota!”

1. Psychoactive Drugs (Uncut Mix) — Emergency Broadcast Network
2. Just Say No to Drug Hysteria [Excerpt] / Dead Souls — William S. Burroughs
3. Words of Advice for Young People [Pete Arden Mix] — William S. Burroughs
4. Hey Man, Nice Shot — Filter
5. More Human Than Human — White Zombie
6. Anthem — Brian G./DJ Spinn
7. Voodoo-U — Lords of Acid
8. The Hustle — Soul City Orchestra/Van McCoy
9. Horror Head — Curve
10. Zombie — The Cranberries
11. Halcyon + On + On — Orbital
12. Sanctuary — Madonna
13. Bedtime Story — Madonna
14. A Dream Away — The Cars
15. Sudden Organ — Yo La Tengo
16. Souvlaki Space Station — Slowdive
17. People Get Real — Saint Etienne
18. Krazy — Seal
19. Feeling So Real — Moby
20. bang — Frankie Goes to Hollywood

Insanely Great Nineties Songs You Aren’t Sick Of, as seen on Secret History of Rock ‘n’ Roll

1. Stop! — Jane’s Addiction
2. Rave Down — Swervedriver
3. No Kid (Acoustic Version) — Urban Dance Squad
4. Birdbrain — Buffalo Tom
5. Lullaby — Warrior Soul
6. Pretty Pink Rose (Duet With David Bowie) — Adrian Belew
7. Step On — Happy Mondays
8. Lullabye — Concrete Blonde
9. Soon — My Bloody Valentine
10. Manna and Quail — Caterwaul
11. The Beautiful Dead — Killing Joke
12. Falling to Pieces — Faith No More
13. Grey Cell Green — Ned’s Atomic Dustbin
14. High Monkey Monk — Cocteau Twins
15. You’re Not the Only One I Know — The Sundays
16. De-Luxe — Lush
17. Sliver — Nirvana
18. Bury Me — Smashing Pumpkins
19. Pushin Forward Back — Temple Of The Dog
20. Vapour Trail — Ride
21. I Want to Touch You — Catherine Wheel
22. Sometimes — My Bloody Valentine
23. Paper Doll — P.M. Dawn
24. Adoration — Cranes
25. Star Sign — Teenage Fanclub
26. Ten Little Girls — Curve
27. Counting Backwards — Throwing Muses
28. Virus (Hybrid Mix) — Front Line Assembly
29. Emmaline — Urge Overkill
30. Baby Universal — Tin Machine
31. Divine Intervention — Matthew Sweet
32. There You Are — The Goo Goo Dolls
33. The Act We Act — Sugar
34. My Drug Buddy (Remastered) — The Lemonheads
35. Everything’s Ruined — Faith No More
36. Murder, Inc. — Murder Inc.
37. Unsung — Helmet
38. Low Self Opinion — Rollins Band
39. Circles — Meat Beat Manifesto
40. Nothing Natural — Lush
41. Black Metallic — Catherine Wheel
42. Horror Head — Curve
43. Love — The Sundays
44. Love Your Money — Daisy Chainsaw
45. My Umbrella — Tripping Daisy
46. Push Th' Little Daisies — Ween
47. Find the River — R.E.M.
48. Gentlemen — The Afghan Whigs
49. Detachable Penis — King Missile
50. Mayonaise — Smashing Pumpkins
51. Break It Down Again — Tears for Fears
52. Coming Right Along — The Posies
53. Strawberry Wine — Massive Internal Complications
54. Pack Yr Romantic Mind — Stereolab
55. Thunder Kiss ‘65 — White Zombie
56. Regret — New Order
57. Easy (Bonus Track) — Faith No More
58. Sexual Healing — Soul Asylum
59. Missed — PJ Harvey
60. Scentless Apprentice — Nirvana
61. I’ve Seen the Man — The God Machine
62. Dream Machine — The God Machine
63. Seven — The God Machine
64. Evangeline — Cocteau Twins
65. Industrious — Seefeel
66. Gepetto — Belly
67. Here and Now — Letters to Cleo
68. The Carnival Is Over — Dead Can Dance
69. Sister Havana — Urge Overkill
70. Chemical World (Including “Intermission”) — Blur
71. Pets — Porno for Pyros
72. Easy Does It — Coverdale–Page
73. Shock to the System — Billy Idol
74. F Sharp — Nudeswirl
75. Sabotage — Beastie Boys
76. Dead Souls — Nine Inch Nails
77. Rite of Shiva — Machines of Loving Grace
78. So Real — Jeff Buckley
79. Shrine — The Dambuilders
80. Still Remains (2019 Remaster) — Stone Temple Pilots
81. Spin the Black Circle — Pearl Jam
82. I Alone — LIVE
83. Rock ‘n’ Roll Star — Oasis
84. Poison — The Prodigy
85. Wandering Star — Portishead
86. Karmacoma — Massive Attack
87. Missing (Todd Terry Club Mix / Us Radio Edit) — Everything But the Girl & Todd Terr y
88. Bull In the Heather — Sonic Youth
89. Supernova — Liz Phair
90. Power Shack — Fitz Of Depression
91. Soul In a Jar — The Veldt
92. Green Mind — Dink
93. Millenium — Killing Joke
94. She Don’t Use Jelly — The Flaming Lips
95. Blast ‘Em Out (1994) — Renegade Soundwave
96. L.A. Song — Deconstruction
97. Screenwriter’s Blues — Soul Coughing
98. Voodoo Lady — Ween
99. Light From a Dead Star — Lush
100. Rise & Shine — The Cardigans
101. Morning Glory — Oasis
102. Planet Caravan — Pantera
103. Street Spirit [Fade Out] — Radiohead
104. Jellybelly — Smashing Pumpkins
105. Heroin Girl — Everclear
106. Consider This — Filter
107. Big Me — Foo Fighters
108. Wynona’s Big Brown Beaver — Primus
109. Vow — Garbage
110. More Human Than Human — White Zombie
111. Waydown — Catherine Wheel
112. We Prick You — David Bowie
113. Black Steel — Tricky
114. In The Meantime — Spacehog
115. Natural One — Folk Implosion
116. Stars — Hum
117. Angry Johnny — Poe
118. 6 A.M. Jullandar Shere — Cornershop
119. Plowed — Sponge
120. Can’t WaIt One Minute More — CIV
121. Rilkean Heart (Acoustic Version) — Cocteau Twins
122. Long Snake Moan — PJ Harvey
123. Blow Up the Outside World — Soundgarden
124. Adhesive — Stone Temple Pilots
125. Thick of It All — Porno for Pyros
126. Down — 311
127. Peaches — The Presidents of the United States of America
128. Popular — Nada Surf
129. If I Could Talk I’d Tell You — The Lemonheads
130. Salvation — The Cranberries
131. 6 Underground — The Sneaker Pimps
132. She’s Unreal — Meat Beat Manifesto
133. Midnight in a Perfect World — DJ Shadow
134. Seekers Who Are Lovers — Cocteau Twins
135. Hypo-Allergenic — Spooky
136. Sugar Water — Cibo Matto
137. Super Bon Bon — Soul Coughing
138. Iron Man — The Cardigans
139. Fire — Komeda
140. Bluster — Salt
141. Spark Plug — Stereolab
142. Green Man — Type O Negative
143. Absent Friends — Killing Joke
144. Stereo — Pavement
145. Discothèque — U2
146. We Have Explosive — Future Sound of London
147. I’m Afraid of Americans — David Bowie
148. (Can’t You) Trip Like I Do [feat. The Crystal Method] — Filter
149. Block Rockin’ Beats — The Chemical Brothers
150. Come to Daddy (Pappy Mix) — Aphex Twin
151. Toxygene — Orb
152. Chukhung — Biosphere
153. Modular mix — Air
154. Let Down — Radiohead
155. Baker street — Foo Fighters
156. Silver Springs — Fleetwood Mac
157. The Background — Third Eye Blind
158. Wide Open Space — Mansun
159. One Man Army — Our Lady Peace
160. Boys Better — The Dandy Warhols
161. Sex & Candy — Marcy Playground
162. Leave This City — The Sundays
163. Generations — Electric Dog House
164. New Music Machine — Cornelius
165. Walking After You — Foo Fighters
166. David Duchovny — Bree Sharp
167. One — Filter
168. Celebrity Skin — Hole
169. Never Ending Math Equation — Modest Mouse
170. Sidewalk — Built to Spill
171. Circles — Soul Coughing
172. Slipped Away (The Ballad of Lauretha Vaird) — G. Love & Special Sauce
173. Lucky Man — The Verve
174. Pure Morning — Placebo
175. Group Four — Massive Attack
176. Open the Light — Boards of Canada
177. Angelene — PJ Harvey
178. Thank U — Alanis Morissette
179. My Own Worst Enemy — Lit
180. The Dolphin’s Cry — LIVE
181. Aisha — Death In Vegas
182. Nookie — Limp Bizkit
183. Honey — Moby
184. Trimm Trabb — Blur
185. Take a Picture — Filter
186. Days of the Week — Stone Temple Pilots
187. Slide — Goo Goo Dolls
188. Kiss Me — Sixpence None the Richer
189. Yalla Yalla — Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros

Zero degrees Fahrenheit. The air sounds different.

Side A of a mix tape I made for a friend but never sent.

1. Welcome — Gino Latino
2. Buffalo Gals II — Malcolm McLaren
3. Dream of Me (Based on Love’s Theme) — Orchestral Manœuvres in the Dark
4. Sour Times — Portishead
5. Army of Me — Björk
6. Stars — Hum
7. Leave Them All Behind — Ride
8. Without Warning — Dokken
9. Alone Again — Dokken
10. Believe — Dig
11. Fake Plastic Trees — Radiohead
12. Beautiful World — Devo

More Music than Will Fit on a C90 Cassette (best played randomized)

1. Don’t You Know What Love Is? — Touch
2. Raise A Little Hell — Trooper
3. Fantasy — Aldo Nova
4. Juke Box Hero — Foreigner
5. Hot Blooded — Foreigner
6. Cold as Ice — Foreigner
7. Head Games — Foreigner
8. Double Vision — Foreigner
9. Dirty White Boy — Foreigner
10. Feels Like the First Time — Foreigner
11. In the Dark — Billy Squier
12. The Stroke — Billy Squier
13. My Kinda Lover — Billy Squier
14. You Know What I Like — Billy Squier
15. Too Daze Gone — Billy Squier
16. Lonely Is the Night — Billy Squier
17. Whadda You Want from Me — Billy Squier
18. Nobody Knows — Billy Squier
19. I Need You — Billy Squier
20. Don’t Say No — Billy Squier
21. More Than a Feeling — Boston
22. Peace of Mind — Boston
23. Smokin' — Boston
24. Hitch a Ride — Boston
25. Something About You — Boston
26. Let Me Take You Home Tonight — Boston
27. Tom Sawyer — Rush
28. Red Barchetta — Rush
29. YYZ — Rush
30. Limelight — Rush
31. The Camera Eye — Rush
32. Witch Hunt — Rush
33. Vital Signs — Rush
34. Ah! Leah! — Donnie Iris
35. Jane — Jefferson Starship
36. Find Your Way Back — Jefferson Starship
37. Rockin' Into The Night — .38 Special
38. Hold on Loosely — .38 Special
39. Fantasy Girl — .38 Special
40. Tell Me What You Want — Zebra
41. Who’s Behind the Door? — Zebra
42. Dream Police — Cheap Trick
43. You’ve Got Another Thing Comin' — Judas Priest
44. New York Groove — Ace Frehley
45. Ain’t Talkin' ‘Bout Love — Van Halen
46. And the Cradle Will Rock… — Van Halen
47. Bad Reputation — Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
48. Do You Wanna Touch Me (Oh Yeah) — Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
49. Bad Reputation (Live) — Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
50. I Love Rock ‘N Roll — Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
51. Crimson and Clover — Joan Jett & The Blackhearts
52. Let’s Go — The Cars
53. It’s All I Can Do — The Cars
54. Candy-0 — The Cars
55. Dangerous Type — The Cars
56. Good Times Roll — The Cars
57. My Best Friend’s Girl — The Cars
58. Just What I Needed — The Cars
59. You’re All I’ve Got Tonight — The Cars
60. Moving In Stereo — The Cars
61. Working for the Weekend — Loverboy
62. Jump — Loverboy
63. The Kid Is Hot Tonite — Loverboy
64. Turn Me Loose — Loverboy
65. Isn’t It Time — The Babys
66. Every Time I Think of You — The Babys
67. Back on My Feet Again — The Babys
68. Midnight Rendezvous — The Babys
69. Change — John Waite
70. Lorelei — Styx
71. Too Much Time on My Hands — Styx
72. Renegade — Styx
73. Come Sail Away — Styx
74. Roll With the Changes — REO Speedwagon
75. Take It on the Run — REO Speedwagon
76. Don’t Let Him Go — REO Speedwagon
77. Time for Me to Fly — REO Speedwagon
78. Ridin’ the Storm Out — REO Speedwagon
79. Love Stinks — J. Geils Band
80. Centerfold — J. Geils Band
81. Since You Been Gone — Rainbow
82. Feelin’ Satisfied — Boston
83. Keep On Runnin' — Journey
84. Lay It Down — Journey
85. Crazy Train — Ozzy Osbourne
86. Lunatic Fringe — Red Rider
87. Jessie’s Girl — Rick Springfield
88. The Best of Times — Styx
89. Free-For-All — Ted Nugent
90. Burnin' for You — Blue Öyster Cult
91. Hold the Line — Toto
92. Raise a Little Hell — Trooper
93. Ace of Spades — Motörhead
94. No One Like You — Scorpions
95. Heat of the Moment — Asia
96. Only Time Will Tell — Asia
97. Sole Survivor — Asia
98. One Step Closer — Asia
99. Time Again — Asia
100. Wildest Dreams — Asia
101. Without You — Asia
102. Cutting It Fine — Asia
103. Here Comes the Feeling — Asia
104. I Don’t Know — Ozzy Osbourne
105. Flying High Again — Ozzy Osbourne

Side B of a mix tape I made for a friend but never sent. In the 90s when I put this playlist together it wasn’t nearly so sentimental as now…

1. Talk Talk — Talk Talk
2. Kids In America — Kim Wilde
3. The Metro — Terri Nunn
4. Let the Music Play — Shannon
5. I Know There’s Something Going On — Frida
6. The Ghost in You — Psychedelic Furs
7. Perfect Way — Scritti Politti
8. Voices Carry — Til Tuesday
9. You Spin Me Round (Like A Record) — Dead Or Alive
10. Revenge of the Gardian — T99

1. Teotihuacan — Noel Gallagher
2. This Love — Craig Armstrong Feat. Elizabeth Fraser
3. Pharaohs — Tears for Fears
4. Wicked Game (feat. Annaca) — Ursine Vulpine
5. Wicked Game — Emika
6. Do 4 Love [Emerald City 4am Mix] — Fuel
7. The Body Wah — Tears for Fears
8. A Stream With Bright Fish — Brian Eno & Harold Budd
9. Violet — Seal
10. Midnight in a Perfect World — DJ Shadow
11. Teardrop — Massive Attack
12. Above the Fog (Pt.2) — The Best Pessimist
13. Porcelain — Moby
14. Last Night — Moby

1. Valparaiso — Elements Of Ambience
2. Forget Me Not — St Germain
3. Films — Gary Numan
4. Arpegiator — Jean-Michel Jarre
5. the slab — Slowdive
6. Man With A Gun — Jerry Harrison
7. High Roller — The Crystal Method
8. Rebel Yell (The Crystal Method Remix) — Billy Idol
9. you should see me in a crown — Billie Eilish
10. Angel — Massive Attack
11. Jezebel (Seductress Mix) — Recoil
12. Trench — FETISH
13. Blood, Milk And Sky (Miss September Mix) — White Zombie
14. Slowblow — Depeche Mode
15. The Rose Room — Caia
16. TRON Legacy (End Titles) — Daft Punk
17. Teenage Sensation — Gus Gus
18. Post Punk — The Crystal Method, Hyper & Iggy Pop
19. Black Tie White Noise — David Bowie
20. Very Cruel — Poliça

Mental Continuing Noise Process

1. Firestarter [Edit] — The Prodigy
2. Loops of Fury — The Chemical Brothers
3. Miracle — System 7
4. Unknown — Resistance D
5. Araqua — Inner Space
6. Avatar — Link
7. Sex and Gender — Alter Ego
8. The Third Planet — Biosphere
9. Protection — Massive Attack
10. Heat Miser — Massive Attack
11. Sanctuary — Madonna
12. Bedtime Story — Madonna
13. Dream on Dreamer — Brand New Heavies
14. The Hustle — Soul City Orchestra/Van McCoy
15. Theme from S.W.A.T. — Rhythm Heritage
16. Undertow (The Spooky Mix) — Lush
17. Summerblink — Cocteau Twins
18. Already There — The Verve

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1. Drop the Hate — Fatboy Slim
2. Come With Us — The Chemical Brothers
3. Block Rockin' Beats — The Chemical Brothers
4. Ya Mama — Fatboy Slim
5. Afrika Shox — Afrika Bambaataa/Leftfield
6. Where’s Your Head At? — Basement Jaxx
7. Acid 8000 — Fatboy Slim
8. Music [Deep Dish Dot Com Remix] — Madonna
9. Days Go By — Dirty Vegas
10. One More Time — Daft Punk
11. Xpander — Sasha

1. Moon Over Bourbon Street — Sting
2. It’s All Over Now, Baby Blue — Falco
3. Thank You Boys — Jane’s Addiction
4. Kissing a Fool — George Michael
5. Sally — Sade
6. Baby Grand — Billy Joel/Ray Charles
7. Do U Lie? — Prince & the Revolution
8. Some Kind Of Lover — Apollonia 6
9. Bring Me the Disco King — David Bowie
10. Standing on the Corner of the Third World — Tears for Fears
11. San Jose — Frankie Goes to Hollywood
12. More Than This — Charlie Hunter Featuring Norah Jones
13. Bookhouse Boys [Instrumental] — Angelo Badalamenti
14. Baby — Bebel Gilberto
15. Det Du Tänker Idag Är Du I Morgon — Dungen
16. Last Night — Moby
17. Sister Moon — Sting

1. Move (You Make Me Feel So Good) — Moby
2. Feeling So Real — Moby
3. Music 4 da People — Yolk
4. Portal — Sunscreem
5. Tragedy (For You) [Neurodancer] — Front 242
6. Religion (The Prodigy Trance U Down Mix) — Front 242
7. Voodoo-U — Lords of Acid
8. Zombie — 7734
9. Panties — Xpando
10. Anthem — Brian G./DJ Spinn
11. Just One Fix — Ministry
12. Mega Dose — Disciples of House
13. Valparaiso — Elements Of Ambience
14. Mya Yadana — Tranquility Bass
15. Belgium [Deep Space Filter Mix Edit] — Megatonk
16. Mantra [Praying Mantra Mix Edit] — Material
17. Past — Sub Sub