Resonance


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My Instagram feed is about 70% David Lynch, on this the day of his passing.

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Gil Scott-Heron The Revolution Will Not Be Televised

The Lesson

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Online communities have changed my life. One put me on the current course of my life, having deepened my understanding of who I am and what I want. The second, through vulnerable sharing and thoughtful explanations has helped me understand my brain in a way I never dreamed possible.

Oh, and there have been so many opportunities to doom scroll as well. I’ve fallen into thirst traps and conspiracies a-plenty.

But here is the thing. The communities are what you make them. It’s just as true anywhere you may go.

I am going to miss TikTok. I doubt there will be anything close to it in my lifetime. I have never had an online resource show me so much of what I needed to see. So many people with ease and experience and even urgency explaining so much.

Yeah, there are many places to watch videos online. Reels and Shorts and everything else.

The trick, now, is to connect in a way that isn’t owned by anyone other than you and me, and not subject to any prevailing political winds.

Tim Leary said to find the others.

I’m other. I’m one.

Let’s go further.

How do we do this?

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The disadvantage of a clever lockscreen wallpaper like this is that you must fight the urge to actually use the scroll wheel.

I have owned at least three iPods.

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Testing NIP 05 authentication. Looks simple, but that can be deceiving.

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Campbell’s Tomato Soup has wheat flour in it. In and of itself, it’s understandable. It’s a natural thickener. But I’m Celiac. And I made an assumption. And now I can’t eat something I brought home.

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Echodrone Gravity

Builds slowly. A little bombastic. A favorite track of mine. I hope you enjoy.

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Bone-conduction headsets/buds may not be an audiophile dream, but they are a wonderful way to quietly keep music going while leaving room for the ability to participate in things happening around me. One other big win is ear health. Other kinds of listening devices create problems for me.

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Did a little experimenting with PlexAmp this afternoon. I was happy that it was an intuitive way to stream from my Plex server. It’s really nice to have options that leverage what I already own.

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In a completely different vein: Come for the wall of sound. Stay for the vocal harmonies.

A Shoreline Dream New York (2018 Remaster)

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Another fave from The Trip Hop Test, Part 1

Dubeliscious Groove by The Crystal Method

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The Aloof, Society

A track I originally found on a compilation called The Trip Hop Test, Part 1, circa 1994

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To my chagrin, I had not previously adopted and embraced Apple Notes. The Forever ✱ Notes methodology has me digging in to understand tagging, linking and smart folders. Notes is quietly becoming a favorite tool.

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I’m currently a subscriber to Micro.blog, which is where my posts start. Micro.one is live today, as an introduction to micro blogging and is only $1 a month. Intro video at the link.

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That feeling when my own inattention to a detail and assumptions Microsoft’s software makes caused me to change a password in error. IF I had been paying attention, no password change would have been needed. Nevertheless, two accounts have just had the password age clock reset.

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You know, once upon a time I might have been called a silver-tongued devil for my cunning liguistics, and my ability to insert and infer innuendo. However, RuPaul and crew are masters to whom I am a mere understudy.

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Doh. My Series 4 Apple Watch is now Vintage. Only another year or so before it’s obsolete.

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I send you these wishes for your new year, that you will feel safe, secure and seen. And that you will be able to help others feel safe, secure and seen.

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Just saw the memorial segment on CNN’s New Year’s Eve show. I’m old enough now that I know of most of the people who they featured.

Boom.

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I love the low-key “Let me tell you the correct pronunciation of the word you just used” that Jeopardy hosts do.

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As an Animal Crossing veteran [I don’t want to admit how many hours], it’s fun to use the Dream function to tour other Islands at random. I happened on one today that validated some of my own design decisions. But also I was judge-y. My house had more rooms. My museum is more complete. Etc.

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Looking West on Margaret Street on Saint Paul, Minnesota’s East Side

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A little fog this morning

My Posts are Full of Errors Because

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I know.

I know.

The reason why my chats and emails and posts all seem the same is hurry.

First, I’m usually writing in a browser (as I am now), instead of a proper text editing tool. I don’t have a workflow more sophisticated than Get The Idea Out And Hit Send ™.

Secondly, while I do one or more cursory re-reads, I’m operating from what I know I intended to write, which is often different than how my fingers hit the keys, and different still from assumptions that autocorrection tools make. I don’t always see what isn’t right until I see what got published or sent.

Thirdly, I want to strike while the iron is hot. The inspiration to write a post doesn’t last long. And the germ of the idea that generates the post, if otherwise undocumented, may not come around again for a while. Even if it does, it will be subject to the filter called The Moment Is Gone.

Identity and a Kind of Answer to a Question

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A long time ago, I spent time with my mom in research libraries looking at microfilm and microfiche, looking for records proving lineage. On one side of the tree we were building were real and true blood ties. On the other, the lineage of the man who adopted me as his own and gave me his family’s name. I grew up in a blended family. Both sides contain some of the best humans I have ever known.

Even the history of a family name itself is fascinating. We believe we have discovered the origin in a place in what is now Poland. We have also developed relationships with folks in Europe who are actively seeking the diaspora, who wonder why so few in America seem to care.

I have even had the privilege of being on the ground in Sweden, with a large extended family and having the sensation of a strange place feeling at once comfortable and familiar.

But there was a third axis missing and a window possibly closing, which represents my lineage through my birth father. We are not close, despite his efforts. And I admit feelings of regret all the while acknowledging that I’m trying to protect myself from more pain. In a very real way, I already lost him once.

So now, after so much time has passed, I am going to try to reconnect and attempt to carry forward what I can.

Meanwhile, because I am an introvert, I have been researching my genetics directly as it is not nearly so emotionally fraught.

The results are both more and less specific than I hoped. My recent genealogy is European. Full stop. But I expected results to be more concentrated in Sweden or Germany than they are. At the same time, more of my genetics are continental European. The surprise for me was the Polish and Russian. A sort of relief comes from knowing I am genetically related to people who lived in the same part of the world that my family name comes from.

Where family lore is concerned, a great-grandfather who came to the USA in the 20th century always claimed he was descended from Viking blood. What I have learned via 23andMe is that I share one or more segments of DNA with human remains from several Viking Era archeological sites ranging from Dublin, Ireland, the Faroe Islands, the Isle of Mann, the UK, and Denmark. These are remains not necessarily associated with local populations, but more so with trade or battle. It’s not proof of lineage, mind you, but fascinating all the same.

Another thing that DNA testing does is share how you may be connected genetically with others who have used the same services. Even inside of that relatively small slice of humanity, there are thousands of people alive right now, internationally, with whom I share small segments of DNA. And that is a sobering connection to all of humanity.